Wednesday, April 20, 2005
listening to the man i missed
It's 9.13 and I'm in the study centre at school. My IT teacher neglected to show up and im stuck to do crap all except listen to the man i missed and write in my blog. S, you were damn smart not to come to school today. I wish i was sick.
We sat around for 20 minutes outside our classroom, and someone told us that our teacher, Mrs Hall was away. Why didn't someone tell me this morning... I COULD HAVE SLEPT IN!!!
Mind you, i doubt i could have, S called me at the crack of dawn (8.03am) telling me she didn't feel like coming to school today, which is fair enough, she felt like shit. But more than that, a "witheld number" called me twice in the wee ours of the night (2.43am and 3.09am according to my phone) but i hung up on them because I need my sleep. So, WHO WAS IT!!! i have my suspicions... but come on, i need a name people!
I have been sad for approximately 15 hours now. Ben Lee's second melbourne gig sold out yesterday morning. And i don't have tickets to his 1st or 2nd show. And I cried. And I still am on the verge of crying. It doesn't help right now because I'm listening to Sandpaperback... which probably isn't the best song to listen to in this particular situation. Ah crap, now the song changed to "still on the line." Thats it, i don't think i will listen to Ben for a week. I am still in the first stage of the mourning process. Last night i thought i have gone to the third, but i hadn't. I should be hitting denial soon, well at least in the next day.
Hmmm... i changed my playlist to Le Tigre, quite an odd switch. Viz is playing... ooohhh i love JD, she is so cool and brave; this is a brilliant song describing her butch-ness. I love the bit where she sings... "theres a girl... she comes up, dances on me. I look into her eyes, i say: 'hey! you're not a dyke!' " (the song is set in a club or something) i can't help but laughing because i made the same mistake. maybe not to such an extent as this girl, but hey!
Poor thing, must be hard to explain to all the chicks out there that your actually a woman and not a man. how awkward for the people that think she is a he.
it's only 9.34am damn. another 50 minutes until recess. then english then psychology then house meetings then Athletics. meh. school sucks. At least im only an emergency for the 200m. ahhh... the joys of being unfit.
must go.
- Em xoxo
